i know i hadn't really been doing much, i've sorta lost inspiration, motivation, and other "ation" words that i cant really think of, at the moment...

but, along with the lack of "ations", i'm also lacking funds, and a place of residence... so, i'm back with my mom in michigan.. huzzah, right?

wrong...

but, shit happens, so, whatever will be, will be...

wow, i'm tired.
blah.

so, i hadn't done much updating here...

maybe i should?

i hadn't had much energy to create anything as of late. I've pretty much been living inside my head. i know i sound a bit like I'm daft when i say that, but alas, its truth. after a year and a half of torture and pain, I've finally found the guts to move on from a "relationship" that i never necessarily had... i cut all ties with him, and that's that. I'm more than likely planning on summering in Montana, with my sister, and my new guy. and no, its a different one from my last entry... yes, I've sorta gone thru 'em quickly, i suppose, but, hopefully this time it works out. romance is such a pain in the ass...

uh, hopefully, i can take some interesting pictures while in Montana.. i'd love to use my sisters Canon out there. plus, I'll be spending time with my bf, Bryan, so that'll be exceptionally cool.

Okay, i dont have much to update, of course, but i might as well say something,

okay, so, this christmas was pretty good, i got some gifts, despite the fact that i wasnt really expecting any, and i get to stay with my bf for 2 weeks, and its gonna make me sad to have to leave him, soon..

funny thing is, my mom misses me... lol

its weird, cuz i'm not used to her wanting me around, she always wanted to get rid of me, and wanted me to leave her alone, and not bother her, and all that shit... but now, she wants me to come home soon...

it kinda proves that she might actually love me???

*shrug* who knows, it might be just because she's lonely, or whatever, maybe she needs help of some sort...

but, yeah, i dont really wanna leave here... i like being with chris, i like waking up to his snoring, and i like being with him, i like having his arms around me, and i like being able to just walk right up to him and kiss him whenever i want...

and of course, the sex!!! lol

(COMMENCE THE WOOTING, lol)

oh, and uh...

i'm going to make dinner for chris and his family on thursday, which will prove to be an interesting task.

it'll be fun, to say the least.. i just have to remember not to go overboard with everything.

but, alas, i best be leaving now, cuz i have to take the browns to the superbowl. and i'm using my bf's brothers computer, so, i shall be off...

PEACE!!!!

okay, i'm going to be 21 on the 20th of this month. ya'll should wish me happy bday soon, and uh...

i'm pretty excited, cuz i actually have a boyfriend on my birthday...

i cant wait to spend some time with my baby, he's gonna finally meet the rest of my family.. (except for my sister Jessie, but its okay, he'll end up meeting her sometime, soon..)

chris wants to know what i want for my birthday.. but i honestly dont know.. just him being here with me is good enough... ya know?

chyeah, i dont know, tho... i just want to have a good time.. a good day, a good night.. i just want to NOT have a shitty birthday, like usual.

i just hope things go smoothly.